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Playing Catchup and Realization
Jan. 26th, 2008 07:56 pmWas gone again for the past three days and I am now catching up on email and various other items of internet business. Dopey me left my cell phone AND my wallet at home. Not only could I not call anyone (or check my email, which I can do with the phone I got for Christmas), but I didn't have any cash or anything else that might be of importance. Fortunately, I was going to town with my parents and was not expected to pay for much, but I couldn't run any of my own errands. I've done some pretty stupid things in life and this ranks up there with joyriding with high school buddies two days after I got my driver's license (no one was hurt and no one was in trouble, except me with my parents. You'd think I'd learn...)
Also, there are suddenly quite a few projects I'm tempted to start, but with two and a half weeks before my mission (wow, two and a half weeks?!! Oy...), that might not be wise. I can only hope that the desire is still there when I come back. In the meantime, I've come to the realization that all my efforts and time will be spent on the Lord's Errand for the next 18 months and I am glad to do it. I used to think it would take an enormous commitment bordering on giving up your firstborn to serve a mission. But (and there are other forces at work here) my heart's been softened and my attitude's changed. I'm not saying it's going to be easy, but I'm ready to do my best and give my all for it. I'm looking forward to serving.
When I initially made the decision to go on a mission, I knew it was the right thing to do. I also knew that I would have to be reminded of that from time to time and I think this is one of those times. I've been getting so caught up in shopping for missionary clothes and telling family and friends and all the other stuff I have to do that I've been neglecting thinking about why I'm doing this in the first place. It's because I believe something so strongly that I want to share it with others who are looking for the truth. It's very likely that some people won't understand why I'm taking 18 months to teach the gospel full time, but that's okay. If nothing else, this will be good for me (but I do want to help other people). I'm excited and nervous all at the same time.
"But still, as long as I am here, I guess a new experience could be worth trying." - Giselle from "A Happy Working Song" from "Enchanted"
Also, there are suddenly quite a few projects I'm tempted to start, but with two and a half weeks before my mission (wow, two and a half weeks?!! Oy...), that might not be wise. I can only hope that the desire is still there when I come back. In the meantime, I've come to the realization that all my efforts and time will be spent on the Lord's Errand for the next 18 months and I am glad to do it. I used to think it would take an enormous commitment bordering on giving up your firstborn to serve a mission. But (and there are other forces at work here) my heart's been softened and my attitude's changed. I'm not saying it's going to be easy, but I'm ready to do my best and give my all for it. I'm looking forward to serving.
When I initially made the decision to go on a mission, I knew it was the right thing to do. I also knew that I would have to be reminded of that from time to time and I think this is one of those times. I've been getting so caught up in shopping for missionary clothes and telling family and friends and all the other stuff I have to do that I've been neglecting thinking about why I'm doing this in the first place. It's because I believe something so strongly that I want to share it with others who are looking for the truth. It's very likely that some people won't understand why I'm taking 18 months to teach the gospel full time, but that's okay. If nothing else, this will be good for me (but I do want to help other people). I'm excited and nervous all at the same time.
"But still, as long as I am here, I guess a new experience could be worth trying." - Giselle from "A Happy Working Song" from "Enchanted"
