It's not like I'm not on LJ all the time - but I just peruse my comms and get on with my day.  But lots of good things have happened and here they are - 

1. First, the BIG THINGS - Salt Lake County Library hired me as a substitute librarian.  Which means I check online once a week (or so) and see if there are any open shifts in the system (there are over 20 library branches in SLCo) and take as many shifts as I want up to 30 hours a week.  I don't get benefits - BUT the County is constantly hiring internally, so it's likely I will get moved up as the system grows.  Shoot, they're building three brand new libraries this year - I'm sure to get in on a permanent basis soon.  Even so - JOB! MONEY! FREEDOM! (er... something like that).
    1a. I'm also working on a practicum ("internship" with a fancy word) and my practicum supervisor is a branch manager and she said she started out as a sub and just worked her way up to being the Head Boss Chief Big Cheese in Charge.  So that's heartening.

2. My dear friend K, after years of going to school and paying dues and putting up with crap from family, friends and neighbors about her family situation, has also gotten a job.  She's the Family/Consumer Science teacher at a local high school - in fact, she's THE Family/Consumer Science teacher - the ONLY one.  So she's in charge of that department and she gets to teach these kids whatever the heck she wants (so long as she follows the state curriculum).  She's excited to get started and I'm insanely happy for her because she deserves it.

3. My mom called and said that this family in our home branch is finally moving!  Now, this family has pretty much gotten on my mom's, my sisters' and my brother's nerves for the past year or so.  They've been coming in on our ranch and telling us how to run our place and take care of our cows and we've all just about had it with them (but we can't tell them to leave us alone because that wouldn't be "very nice" and they actually do good work with helping us and a bunch of other crap that I just don't want to get into here DX)  But, they're leaving and I shouldn't be as happy as I am, but I don't care -THEY'RE GONE! HAPPY DAY!
4. I've just about finished my (ahem) SOOPER SEKRIT project for my little niece (who will be making her appearance in the next few weeks or so).  I will post pictures because, frankly this thing is too cool for words (at least, I think so.  But I'm biased ^_^)
I'm sitting here waiting for my family to get home from town and reading my flist and thinking "Gosh, a lot of people have their '2010 Year in Review' things going."  So, I get to thinking about how 2010 was for me - and this is what I came up with:

Cut for length and sentimentality - but it's important to me, anyway.

Time falls away, but these small hours still remain )

So - to everyone who made it this far through my ramblings: congratulations. I wish I had a medal to give you. If you didn't read it, that's fine too. But everyone have a happy and wonderful 2011!
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I don't usually answer these things, but this one had my attention.

I haven't had so many actual "break-ups" (in the traditional sense), but I've had some hefty romantic disappointments that have felt like break-ups.  And it's always been the guy doing the actual breaking up.  And I suppose I should count myself lucky that I've never had a big blow-up-style break-up, but I think this weak, awkward "let's be friend" crap is just as bad, if not worse.

Personally (and maybe this is just me being weird), I never want to do the "let's stay friends" thing with a guy that I've dated.  Mostly because at some point in the relationship, I've probably imagined what it would be like if it was permanent and more often than not, I get attached to the idea of the permanence.  Sad, I know.  I don't know how other people avoid doing that.  I wish I didn't because it sucks.  But the really sad part is when HE wants to keep up the "friends" BS and I don't know how to tell him to knock it off without being completely bitchy.  Every time I get a phone call from him or an email or a Facebook message or I actually see him in real life, it reminds me of that happy, giddy "holy crap, this could be THE ONE" feeling and I'm reminded how everything really turned out and I feel embarrassed and idiotic.  So, while he may think that it's okay that we be "friends," I honestly would prefer that he never make contact with me again.  To the result that when I do hear from him, I'm not very nice.  Then, I feel even worse because I know he was just trying to be kind and I threw it back in his face.

The worst phrase in the English language is "Let's be friends" because all it is is a pathetic attempt to soften the blow that would probably be better in the long run if he just kicked me to the curb in the cruelest way possible.  That way, I don't beat myself up into a bloody pulp when I do treat him like scum when he calls or emails (oh gee, isn't this such a happy topic of discussion?  And on Easter Sunday of all days).  Just be abrupt and tell me you don't ever want to see me again.  Emulate the Band-aid method - it's a bit more painful, but it's fast and done with.  Don't feel like you have be bestest best buds just because it somehow eases your conscience.  In reality, it doesn't.  All it does is make life more awkward for the both of us.  To be honest, I really don't feel like I've completely healed over it, even though I act like I have.  "Friends" just prolongs the suffering.

Does this make me a heartless shrew?  Perhaps.  But it's good incentive to never date (and now I want to do a Facebook friends cut... I wonder how you do that...)
Thank you Facebook!!

I posted a passing comment on Facebook that I have a LJ (my Facebook friends list is slowly but surely becoming enormous - happiness!)  And who should reply, but the first person that I taught and got baptized on my mission - saying that she has a LJ and that I should friend her.

Uh... YES!!!!  (waves to [profile] good_enoughh )  I love you kid! (yay for having flist peeps that I know in real life!)

[Hopefully I don't scare her off with my insane geekery.]

And I'm going with my dad to the temple tomorrow - nearly a year since I've been.  Even though Orlando was a mere two hours away from Jacksonville, mission rules were such that I only got to go once the entire time I was in Florida (Orlando has its own mission).  So, when Dad pulled in and asked me if I wanted to go to Manti with him tomorrow - heck YES!!

I am insanely jealous of my brother.  There's a temple actually in Buenos Aires.  Darn kid getting called to Argentina...

Well, [profile] shellic needs to get herself a userpic.  At least one. :3

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What has brought this sudden bout of glee into my life?  A few things:

1. I found my wonderful and terrific and great and awesome (I could go on) friend, [info]faewren on LJ.  She kind of sought me out first by way of sending me an e-mail to tell me about animeOnline, which is kind of a MySpace for Otakus (but scores better than MySpace, I'll have you know).  I've been feeling guilty that I don't keep in touch with that group of friends as much and I'm about to graduate college and my life is probably going to get even busier, so I really have no good excuse.

2. The USU Career Fair was yesterday and buried underneath the mountains of displays from engineering companies, there were actually a few that were looking for English-major-writing-type peoples.  One company in particular was a real estate company that actually uses Internet technology to advertise.  And not just "Oh, we have a website and you'll be listed there," I'm talking DVD presentations, podcasts, online newsletters to let clients know about the area -- which is where my mad writing skillz would come in handy (!) -- and recordings of training sessions that you can listen to in the car and actually learn a little something about what the heck you're trying to do.  That was always my turn-off to real estate.  If I decided not to do it, it would be because it's so gosh dang hard to get started, especially when your scores-more-experienced broker is taking all the good listings.  The only problem is that this company is based in Brigham City and I'm kind of wanting to get to where I can live in or around Salt Lake more.  I've been so far away from family and friends for so long and I'm getting tired of it.
    Then again, I have to get my real estate license first, and that might take awhile.  Real Estate School itself isn't hard, it's all the money you have to pay to take classes, take tests, licensing fees, et cetera.  I have probably enough to get me through until May 5, but after that, I'll be looking for free rent at home or a cardboard box on the side of the road.  I haven't decided which.

3. I am T-minus 25 hours until I can leave for Spring Break!!  I'll get to see the family sooner than expected because I'll be going through Delta and they'll probably be there when I get there.  Then, it's a week of simply enjoying life with the fam (not to mention some good ol' home cookin' -- yum)

Love from,
Jenny Wildcat



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