(Why is my iTunes shuffling through all the depressing songs I have?)

I realized I haven't posted anything pertinent to real life in a while (or maybe it just feels that way).

Last weekend was fun.  I went with my family to Hurricane to watch Delta play their playoff game.  The first half was a big defensive battle, so no one had scored by halftime.  After halftime, Hurricane came out all fired up, so we figured that they would score and that it would be all over.  Except we got a defensive stop at the two yard line and one of our guys stripped the ball and ran down the field to about the ten yard line (none of the refs had blown the play dead, so the kid just took off).  Delta ended up winning 6-0 (they missed the extra point - the kicker's kind of a scrub).  And their big reward is... to go play in freezing Logan tomorrow and get massacred.  Oh well, my brother's looking forward to basketball season, so hopefully that'll be better than football season was.

Once we got home, we had [profile] adjie1026's birthday party and then we just played Halo all weekend (there wasn't a Sunday Night Football game because of the World Series - I'm not really into baseball, but I wanted Colorado to win.  I have to pose a question, however.  Would you rather your mascot be a big, imposing, mountain range or would you rather it be something that gets lost in the dryer?).  She got another Xbox controller for her birthday so we could play three at a time, so we did a big Halo tournament-thing with my siblings and my cousins.  I usually suck at Halo, but we played the King of the Hill game and I actually didn't do too bad (it's easier when you know where everyone's headed instead of just free-for-alling it and waiting to get sniped).

We came back to town on Monday, but I didn't come into Salt Lake until later in the day.  Tuesday, I didn't do much except read, but yesterday I got a call from the employment agency and they had an envelope-stuffing job for me.  All I did was stand by the conveyor belt and put CDs into these mailing sleeves with this really ugly and kind of creepy-looking kid on them.  But it wasn't too bad.  The people I was working with were nice and they let us listen to the radio.  It almost felt like a Young Men/Young Women service activity back in the day, except I'm getting paid for it (Money = Win).  I spent six hours there, but it felt like it went a lot faster.

Then, last night my roommate and I went to the YSA Halloween party up Millcreek Canyon.  I really hadn't planned on going, but my roommate wanted to go and I figured I still had my Hermione costume from all the Harry Potter hoopla over the summer and I might as well use it.  The party was okay, they had music (and supposedly a spook alley, but I don't think they ever got it together) and food.  The costumes were pretty fun.  Our bishop and his wife dressed up American Gothic and one of his counselors and his wife were a butterfly catcher and a butterfly (the butterfly was in the net - that was cool).  Someone else was a stick figure (they wore white sweats and used black tape to "draw" the stick figure shape) and there was another couple that were a pair of eyeballs.  This one group of girls dressed up as those old-school Trolls complete with the jeweled belly-buttons and the stick-up hair.  They told us that they had each put a whole bottle of Elmer's glue in their hair to make it stick up the way they did, which, I don't envy the job they're going to have getting that stuff out.

Anyway, that's what's been going on with me.  I'm going to have a book review post since I've finished a few books (and it'll probably be beneficial to more than a few of you, so look for that).  I'm debating whether I want to go home this weekend again, since I need to get working on my missionary paperwork and such, but I might need to hang around here in case someone wants to come see my apartment and (hopefully) buy my contract.  We've had a few calls, so that's good (please, someone want to come live here - pleeeease?)
*sigh*... well, I've coped with the big Dumbledore news fairly well. For the schpiel, go here. (I'm steering clear of any Harry Potter related stuff for a while, maybe a looooong while, depending on how crazy this is going to get - Note to my family: let me know if any of you passed out from reading that). For now, I'm just sitting here watching "Chuck" and waiting for "Heroes" to come on (thank heaven for multiple fandoms).

[A Vytorin commercial just came on - you know, that cholesterol medicine that has the split screen of the food and the people dressed up like food? They used to be kinda funny, but I think they're running out of ideas.]

I didn't have to work today. Tomorrow's my last day with this real estate assistant job and I'm going back to the temp agency. I wasn't getting many hours with this job anyway. This guy hasn't even paid me yet and it's been - what? - three weeks (luckily, I still have his phone number and I know where he lives - he works out of a home office). So, yeah, it's back to temp stuff. At least I know the temp agency will pay me. And I almost don't even care what I do. I'm at the point where the seasonal positions at Target or Victoria's Secret are looking like viable options (college degree be damned). A job is a job and money is money.

Though, a funny thing happened last week. Someone from the Dugway Army Proving Ground e-mailed me and invited me to apply for two positions (they found my resume on Monster). One is a Technical Writer and the other is a Technical Editor. If I got either of those, I would be sitting dang pretty (money, benefits, tons of goodies). It's just that it's out in the middle of nowhere and I'd have to live in Grantsville, which I really don't want to do (social life is a moot point. I don't even have that here in Salt Lake. But that's another rant).

Oh cool, Heroes is starting.

Okay, so it's been a few days.  Which means it's been a while.  I have been reading my flist, even if I don't reply.

I started a new job yesterday as a real estate assistant, but I'm not sure if I'm going to keep it.  The schedule is wacky and I'm not sure if it'll be able to keep up with my expenses (rent, car payment and the like), but it's better than nothing for now.  I did have an interview for something more permanent (with benefits! YES!), but I won't know the verdict until tomorrow and that's only if they want to see me for a second interview.  Ugh... I hate job hunting.  It's worth it when it's over, but it's such a pain right now.

Speaking of pain, my neck started twinging again.  It happens when I sit for too long with bad posture and it tends to kick in during stressful times.  Basically, I can't turn my neck a certain way and it makes my resting heart rate go crazy (I can look down and actually see my chest pumping - it can be scary if you don't know what's going on).  It did this to me last year about this time (that was the Semester from Hell - school, work, church callings, more school, more work, DEATH!), which meant I had to go to physical therapy three times a week (lucky it was free at the student wellness center back then.  But my schedule didn't thank me for that).  I don't think I'll have to go back because I'm still doing the exercises they gave me last year.  If my neck gets really bad (like it is now), I can do them at home on my own.  So far, they've helped.  I really don't want to have to go to the doctor right now (see why I want benefits?), but I should be okay.  I just hate having to deal with the pain.  Up until now, I've been able to do simple neck exercises at my desk to prevent it, but either I've forgotten to do some of that or I'm just really stressed out right now and that's why it's being a problem.  Though, I do wish I could have the ultrasound-shock therapy (or whatever it's called) - that was strange, but kind of nice.

Anyway, it's turning colder and that means it's fall, which is great.  It is a little schizophrenic at the moment (ie, windows are frosted over in the morning, but you've got the AC full blast by lunchtime), but it's good to have a change in the weather.

Oh, I'm so tired... it's only the second day and it's already kicking my butt... And less time for "me time" - that's not healthy...
I seriously don't use this icon enough.  Though, I think I want to get a different one with some snarky text... I'll have to see what I have stockpiled.  Or I could make one.  I actually created a couple for an LJ icontest for one of my comms, having found the virtues of using PowerPoint with MS Paint - yes, I'm cheap and ghetto, but it gets the job done.  The voting for the contest hasn't even happened yet, so we're still waiting on that.  I'll probably post them after the contest is over so all my friends can see my wonderful labor of love ^_^.

Started my temp position today, though it's only for today.  Basically I'm baby-sitting the phone and fax machine while their real receptionist is taking the day off.  I don't mind, though.  The first thing the manager-lady said to me was "Here, I'll log you on the computer so you can surf the 'net if you'd like."

Win?  I think so.

I'm seriously torn on something.  I think I want to go to Family Home Evening tonight, but it's at 8:00, the same time as "Heroes." I know, I ought to be flogged for choosing between the two.  I've never been a big FHE goer, but tonight's different for some reason (OT - boy that fax machine is busy. I just barely put paper in it and it's going to be empty before 11:00).  It could be that I'm feeling a little guilty for being lazy with regards to my church-activities-attendance record - I go to church, just not all the activities (much to the chagrin of others).  I don't think I need to go to everything, but I haven't really gone to anything.  Of course, I should want to go to these activities and if I don't want to go, then I don't have to go.  Hm, oh well.  Just my random thought process and not really anything to be too worried about.  It just helps for me to write it out to work through it.

(heh, they have a typewriter here.  *giggle*)
I'm just sitting here watching the Giants-Eagles game. Iiiiii... guess I'm cheering for the Giants. Yeah, Eli Manning beats the way-over-hyped-and-full-of-himself Donovan McNabb any day (besides, I'm playing my cousin in Fantasy Football this week and he has McNabb at quarterback. I'm not terribly worried, though. I've got Eli's older brother Peyton on my fantasy team and he had a great game today (pauses for a gloating moment - I've got Peyton Manning on my Fantasy team - am I a lucky little twerp or what?). Now I'm praying that Joseph Addai will be okay to play next week - I wasn't supposed to have to play the running back shuffle until week 6 when the Colts have their bye week.  Ugh).

I can't help but feel sorry for the Chicago Bears - they had Rex Grossman and he sucked, so they started Brian Griese instead, but he sucked too.  It's too bad - maybe they could coax Dan Marino or Steve Young out of retirement (yeah, neither of them played for the Bears, but they're desperate).  But Brett Favre is doing wonderfully, what with now holding the record for career passing touchdowns.  I've liked him for a long time.  It's kind of nice to have a player that I cheered for when I was in the third grade still playing and doing well (and I don't mean that to be sarcastic - I'm being sincere).  Green Bay being 4-0 and all - that makes me happy.  But whut the -- the Lions are 3-1?!  Of all the random crap to come out of Detroit...  Not that I'm not pleased, just surprised.

(Somebody just fumbled the ball and in the ensuing scramble, the ball "squirted" out. I love when the ball "squirts" out. Anyway, random thought).

JK Rowling updated her website today and since it's a new month, there's a new Wizard of the Month. It's Harry Potter, the Boy Who Lived himself, which is cool. Except the picture of him is kinda creepy. I can't look at it very long without getting the jibbilies.

Good news!  I got a call on Friday from the temp agency I signed up with and they got me a position starting tomorrow.  I'm going to be a receptionist for a property management company.  According to my job-agent-lady-person (they have a fancy name, but I can't remember what it is), they said that it could be kinda slow, so I could bring a book to read while I was there.  I'm not sure how many days I'll be there (it is a temp position, after all).  It could be a week or a month or however long they want me to hang around there, but it's good that I'm not going to just be hanging around here all day.

(Geez, someone else just got hurt.  You'd think football was a rough game or something...)

And after being in the ward for three months, I finally have a Visiting Teaching partner, which I'm excited about, especially after the General Relief Society meeting last night (I always marvel that the guys get a full two hours of their general meeting twice a year, but we women can get by with a mere hour and a half once a year.  That's 'cuz we're wonderful ^_^).  They talked a lot about being good Visiting Teachers and some other things that I need to work on.  I have no excuse, other than I've been lazy, which really isn't an excuse.

(McNabb just got sacked for the ninth time.  That pretty much speaks for itself.)
Whelp, I did it.  I moved to Salt Lake.  Granted, it's just into my sister's apartment for the summer until I find more permanent housing (this is a call for anyone in the Salt Lake and/or University of Utah area to pipe up if they're looking for a roommate).  My sister is the only one here until school starts, but all the girls left their stuff here and are still paying rent, but they said I could have a bed, which was really nice of them (I am paying a fair share of the rent, though).  I haven't unpacked anything except my bedding and everything else is in either a box or a suitcase.

My whole family had business in town, so it's not like they're way far away until about tomorrow.  As of tomorrow afternoon, though, it's just me and my sister.  That doesn't sound so bad, except we're not as close as some sisters are.  We used to be best buddies when we were kids, but we just grew apart and even went through a kind of rocky spot when we were in high school and both transitioning to college, but we have gotten better.  Instead of wanting to kill each other, we tolerate and are civil to each other.

I'm not saying that I think this living arrangement is going to change all that, (side note: I just turned on my iTunes and "Homesick" by Train came on ... what am I supposed to make of that?) but I predict a rather quiet and lonely summer for me.

I had an interesting thought when I was on my way into town.  I was listening to PotterCast #91 and the Canon Conundrums crew were discussing which Hogwarts houses they all thought they were.  Of course, there was Sue Hufflepuff and John Slytherin.  Steve said he was Ravenclaw, but I was pleasantly surprised to hear that Melissa thought she was a Gryffindor (it's always struck me that Gryffindor is a less popular choice among fans for reasons I have yet to discover).  For some reason, that discussion got me wondering why I think I'm a Gryffindor.  I certainly have brainy Ravenclaw tendencies and even a Hufflepuff work ethic, so why did I pick the House of Godric?

I came to the conclusion that it's because I take risks, even when I'm scared to death of taking them.  Like this whole getting a job in Salt Lake and moving there thing.  I do know people around here, but not enough to make me feel like it's home.  Yet, I'm here because I feel like I need it.  It was the same thing when I moved to Callao.  My family moved there my senior year of high school.  My parents told me that I could stay where I was and finish high school or I could move with them.  It was a scary prospect at the time, but now I'm happy I chose to move with my family.  It took bravery for me to do that and it also took bravery for me to decide that I was going to graduate from Utah State when I did.  I could have stayed and been a professional college student for another three kajillion years, but I decided to pool my credits, graduate and move on with my life.  Maybe it was a stupid thing for me to do, but I don't think so.  Gryffindors don't make perfect decisions either and sometimes they pay for it (I just finished re-reading "Order of the Phoenix" - prime example, but those things had to happen for Harry to progress).  I'm certain I'll make a few dumb mistakes, but part of being brave is facing the fact that you'll make mistakes and it's what you do to recover from those mistakes that build you character.

So now, while I have a spiffy 40-hour/week job, I'm looking down the barrel of becoming a honest-to-goodness adult-type person with adult-type responsibilities.  Do I feel ready for them?  Hell no!!  Am I scared to do it?  Spitless.  But Harry was scared spitless of facing Voldemort in that graveyard, but he did it anyway.  I've done a lot of things that I wasn't ready for.   I've done a lot of things that I was afraid of doing.  And I came out all right.

Gryffindor House All the Way!  Lions for the Cup!

Love from,
Jenny Wildcat
Since it's summer, of course things change by the millisecond, so here's the quick rundown --

- My little sister and my cousin beat Lego Star Wars before I did.  Granted, there's one level we can't play because the disc or something freezes up (I swear, we have a Super Nintendo that you can run over with a bulldozer and it still works, but if you breathe wrong on these new consoles, they spaz out like Marilyn Bauer), but still, I'm irritated.

- The whole town (all thirty of us - no joke) is going to be scrubbed down and put on our best behavior for the county commissioners and twelve of their friends coming for lunch tomorrow.  I guess it's some tourism and travel committee that wants to see all the places of interest and since we're on the Pony Express Trail, we get to feed them.  The best part: they'll be eating at our cook house on our ranch, so today will be spent making the cook house look presentable for the highest dignitaries that we'll ever be honored to entertain (on the bright side: any excuse for a barbecue ^_^)

- I preordered my "Deathly Hallows" yesterday.  Yes, I am a procrastinator, but as long as I get there early for a wristband, who notices?

- Oh, and one minor, small, insignificant note from yesterday -- I got a JOB!!  I'm a Quality Control Editor for an online university in Salt Lake and it PAYS!! (I'm not going to say how much because I feel a little weird bragging about the exact amount -- but I don't feel weird bragging about that I get that much... yeah, that made no sense).  Though, after bills and expenses, it probably really isn't that much, especially since I'm going to be apartment hunting soon and housing in the big city is not cheap, not to mention food and gas and car payments.  Oh well, welcome to adulthood ^_^

- On the subject of housing, I'm moving in with my sister for the rest of the summer until her roommates come back from summer vacation.  She lives up by the U, which is where I wanted to be so I could go to a student ward (as opposed to a singles ward - trust me, there is a BIG difference).  It'll be a little strange since I'm not very close with my sister, but she was nice enough to say yes.  And she works at night and I'll be working during the day, so it's not like we'll see a lot of each other (I need to ask her if she has internet in her apartment.  I think she does, but better to check).

- This arrangement is only temporary anyway.  I still need to go apartment hunting for when school starts in September.  I still haven't come to terms with the fact that I'm not going back to school in the fall.  I still feel like I'm on summer vacation and I need to get my books and fees paid and all that fun stuff.  It probably won't hit me until everyone else starts going back.

And that's my life.  It's not terribly exciting, but I feel like talking about it.

Love from,
Jenny Wildcat
It's amazing what happens in the span of a little over twelve hours between posts.

I got next to no sleep last night because of some little crawly critter either in my room, in an adjacent room or between the walls making annoying-if-not-creepy noises all night last night.  Now, I have a (possibly unnatural) fear of mice.  Spiders and insects I can deal with.  It's called a shoe.  But when I see a mouse zipping across my room or hear one making skritchy sounds nearby, I grab for the nearest broom and scream for the cat (or a vastly braver adult will do).  When it's 1:00 am and I am wide awake with the fear of some diseased rodent possibly crawling around the foot of my bed, I am NOT getting to sleep.

I sat up in bed for an hour getting up the courage just to get up and look behind my bookcase to see if anything was there.  Nothing was there, so I thought it was on the other side of the wall on the stairs.  Another half an hour, I got up the guts to go look there.  Nothing.  THEN, I remembered that my room also shares a wall with the storage cupboard under the stairs [insert obligatory Dursleys joke here], which, the door to that room is on the other end of the hallway. I finally convinced myself to lay down and get a little more sleep, but by this time, it was almost 3:00, so deep relaxing sleep was not happening.

When I woke up this morning, I got my mom to come downstairs with me to see if we could find anything, but there was no sign of any creature anywhere.  Just some really weird scratching noises coming from the wall behind my bookcase.  It might not even be a mouse, who knows?  This is why I'm for an indoor cat.  My parents hate having any animals in the house, but the way I see it, it's worth all the litter box duty in the world if I can have a mouse-free living area. (And those weird noises are still coming and I'm still hating this).

In other news, I GOT A JOB INTERVIEW!!!  It's an editing position for a company in Salt Lake.  But, like pretty much everything in my life, this cannot go smoothly.  I got the e-mail from the manager today, asking me to call him before 11:30 to set up a time for me to come.  I was the only one home and it was quarter to eleven and I wasn't sure when my parents would be back.  I knew that they were going to town tomorrow, so I figured it would be okay if I set a time for then and I could hitch a ride with them.  I called the guy, set up a time and got all giggly because I spent three hours yesterday on Monster trying to figure out all the complexities of sending a good resume (this job was not one of the ones on Monster, incidentally.  This one was in the want ads in the newspaper).

Mom and Dad came back and I told them the good news and this was their response: "Tomorrow? Couldn't you have done it for Thursday?"  In all the excitement, I had forgotten that I was going to take my mom's Activity Day girls group tomorrow because the reason my parents were going into town was for some business thingy that they both need to do (but who actually knows if it'll happen tomorrow anyway) and my mom was going to do some birthday shopping for me and my dad (our birthday is Thursday - send cookies ^_^).  So, now, my excitement is now just a feeling of being an inconvenience and a burden and I'm not as excited about this opportunity as I was.  The dumb part is that this was one job I actually wanted - not just something I was applying for because I'm poor and need/want to move to town where there are people - and now it's turning into poop.

Why can't I just have one thing where I can say "'kay, I've got a job interview and I'm going to go no matter what other stupid things come up and I don't have to depend on someone else."

Love from,
Jenny Wildcat
I meant to post something meaningful yesterday after my last day of classes (probably) ever, but I just didn't.  So sue me.

I'm just a sentimental turd, I guess.  After my class ended yesterday, I got all sighy and weepy, but that might have been because I was signing a nice little gift we did for our IWA advisor and she is such a sweet lady.  She's almost been like a second mother to me while I've been at school and I got a little sad when I realized that I was going to be leaving her and all the girls in my IWA chapter.  But it's okay because I get thinking about all the things I get to do now that I'm graduating (in seven days!)  It's scary and it's exciting all at the same time.

I've had a big day today and it all started last night.  I went with my aforementioned IWA chapter on an end-of-year retreat to our advisor's place in Richmond (she has this huuuuge house on a little farm-type thing in the foothills complete with a cabin, forest and creek!) and none of us got to sleep until 4:00 am this morning.  Sugar+lots of hyper girls+improv games+"Night at the Museum" (instant classic, btw)=completely drained.  I felt bad for the few who had to get up early this morning, but I didn't have to be anywhere until 3:00 this afternoon, so I was good.  I spent the day packing up a few things and relaxing until...

Institute Graduation!  My parents made the drive up here to come see me graduate from Institute, which I really appreciated.  I also got to see my dad's new truck (squee!) A Ford F-350 Power Stroke very-lots-of-extended cab (backseat legroom in a pickup=totally made of win).  I'm not sure what year, but it's a beauty (I'm not going to lie - I'm in love ^_^) [and my roommate just walked out of the room and turned the light off leaving me in the dark with just my computer screen for light -- thanks... really] Anyway, it's was a nice little ceremony for the 350-some-odd folky-days who actually bothered to graduate from Institute.  I figure that I liked Institute more than actual college and I'm going to enjoy it as much as I can.  The single 1 1/2 hour ceremony today won't be as draining as the two 3 hour commencement and graduation hooplas next week.

After the ceremony, Mom and Dad took me to dinner at Olive Garden (a family tradition whenever they come up here).  We didn't talk about job stress for me much because I have a job interview on Monday in Salt Lake.  It's for a position as an Information Specialist with the State of Utah Environmental Quality.  I would be helping educate consumers, real estate developers and agents and helping promote radon testing and some other stuff that sounds pretty neat (well, to me, anyway).  I'm really hoping this job come through because I know exactly where that office is, it would get me out and about and it's centrally located to everywhere I want to be!  I'm hoping the interview goes well.

So, that was my day and now I'm extremely tired.  I could very well take a nap, but by the time I woke up, it would be time for bed, so maybe I'll just go to bed.  Whatever.

Love from,
Jenny Wildcat
I've mentioned it an innumerable number of times and I will probably mention it another innumerable number of times before May 5: I have no idea what I'm doing after graduation and would people Please. Stop. ASKING!!!!!

Whoo, that's out of my system.

I just got off the phone with my mom and she's all "A little over a month until graduation... any ideas what you're going to do?"  My response: "Play Xbox with my brother?"

Obviously, that is not a viable option and I would probably get sick of it after awhile.  I know full well that I am going to get bored in Callao all summer, but also moving to Salt Lake scares the living tar out of me.  Lots of scary people, lots of scary traffic, lots of rules that I am sure to break and I won't even have the excuse that I'm just a stupid college student who has no idea what the hell is going on.

Here's what must happen if I'm to make the move to the Big City:
1. Find a job
2. Find housing that I can afford with said job (and that lets me sleep above the floor)
3. Find said housing with at least one roommate (living alone=many a sleepless night)
4. Make friends and influence people (or just make friends)
I think most of my problem is that I don't really know anybody in the Salt Lake area.  Where am I going to go if I have a problem?  What if I all of a sudden have a financial situation and I can't get myself out of it?  What if I get stuck somewhere and don't have anyone to call?  What if I get really sick or hurt?  I'm not a little kid anymore and I don't have my mom and dad to run to if I get in trouble.  I'm supposed to be an adult now, but I don't think I'm really ready for this.

And then there's the prospect of getting a job.  All I've heard my whole life is "When you get your college degree, you can go out and do whatever you want."  Well, I very nearly have my college degree and I have no clue what I want to do, so there's really nothing that I can do.  I don't know what's out there and available to me.  I know that I can handle having a full time job because I did it last summer and I loved the job I had and I curse the fact that I had one more year of school left because I would have just kept it.  That, and I want to be closer to my family because I missed too many things going on at home because I was stuck in Logan.  If I can find a job in Salt Lake like the one I had last summer in Logan, I could handle that.

Geez, all this stress is killing me.  I have to do something to unwind or I won't be sleeping tonight.

Love from,
Jenny Wildcat

PS, If anyone in the Salt Lake area knows of a place that is looking for a smart, efficient, grammatically-skilled, quick-to-learn, Bachelors-in-English recipient, please float them my way. (Not to mention if you know of affordable housing or someone with housing looking for a roommate)



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