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I'm Not Going to Sleep Tonight, Am I?
Mar. 27th, 2007 08:22 pmI've mentioned it an innumerable number of times and I will probably mention it another innumerable number of times before May 5: I have no idea what I'm doing after graduation and would people Please. Stop. ASKING!!!!!
Whoo, that's out of my system.
I just got off the phone with my mom and she's all "A little over a month until graduation... any ideas what you're going to do?" My response: "Play Xbox with my brother?"
Obviously, that is not a viable option and I would probably get sick of it after awhile. I know full well that I am going to get bored in Callao all summer, but also moving to Salt Lake scares the living tar out of me. Lots of scary people, lots of scary traffic, lots of rules that I am sure to break and I won't even have the excuse that I'm just a stupid college student who has no idea what the hell is going on.
Here's what must happen if I'm to make the move to the Big City:
1. Find a job
2. Find housing that I can afford with said job (and that lets me sleep above the floor)
3. Find said housing with at least one roommate (living alone=many a sleepless night)
4. Make friends and influence people (or just make friends)
I think most of my problem is that I don't really know anybody in the Salt Lake area. Where am I going to go if I have a problem? What if I all of a sudden have a financial situation and I can't get myself out of it? What if I get stuck somewhere and don't have anyone to call? What if I get really sick or hurt? I'm not a little kid anymore and I don't have my mom and dad to run to if I get in trouble. I'm supposed to be an adult now, but I don't think I'm really ready for this.
And then there's the prospect of getting a job. All I've heard my whole life is "When you get your college degree, you can go out and do whatever you want." Well, I very nearly have my college degree and I have no clue what I want to do, so there's really nothing that I can do. I don't know what's out there and available to me. I know that I can handle having a full time job because I did it last summer and I loved the job I had and I curse the fact that I had one more year of school left because I would have just kept it. That, and I want to be closer to my family because I missed too many things going on at home because I was stuck in Logan. If I can find a job in Salt Lake like the one I had last summer in Logan, I could handle that.
Geez, all this stress is killing me. I have to do something to unwind or I won't be sleeping tonight.
Love from,
Jenny Wildcat
PS, If anyone in the Salt Lake area knows of a place that is looking for a smart, efficient, grammatically-skilled, quick-to-learn, Bachelors-in-English recipient, please float them my way. (Not to mention if you know of affordable housing or someone with housing looking for a roommate)
Whoo, that's out of my system.
I just got off the phone with my mom and she's all "A little over a month until graduation... any ideas what you're going to do?" My response: "Play Xbox with my brother?"
Obviously, that is not a viable option and I would probably get sick of it after awhile. I know full well that I am going to get bored in Callao all summer, but also moving to Salt Lake scares the living tar out of me. Lots of scary people, lots of scary traffic, lots of rules that I am sure to break and I won't even have the excuse that I'm just a stupid college student who has no idea what the hell is going on.
Here's what must happen if I'm to make the move to the Big City:
1. Find a job
2. Find housing that I can afford with said job (and that lets me sleep above the floor)
3. Find said housing with at least one roommate (living alone=many a sleepless night)
4. Make friends and influence people (or just make friends)
I think most of my problem is that I don't really know anybody in the Salt Lake area. Where am I going to go if I have a problem? What if I all of a sudden have a financial situation and I can't get myself out of it? What if I get stuck somewhere and don't have anyone to call? What if I get really sick or hurt? I'm not a little kid anymore and I don't have my mom and dad to run to if I get in trouble. I'm supposed to be an adult now, but I don't think I'm really ready for this.
And then there's the prospect of getting a job. All I've heard my whole life is "When you get your college degree, you can go out and do whatever you want." Well, I very nearly have my college degree and I have no clue what I want to do, so there's really nothing that I can do. I don't know what's out there and available to me. I know that I can handle having a full time job because I did it last summer and I loved the job I had and I curse the fact that I had one more year of school left because I would have just kept it. That, and I want to be closer to my family because I missed too many things going on at home because I was stuck in Logan. If I can find a job in Salt Lake like the one I had last summer in Logan, I could handle that.
Geez, all this stress is killing me. I have to do something to unwind or I won't be sleeping tonight.
Love from,
Jenny Wildcat
PS, If anyone in the Salt Lake area knows of a place that is looking for a smart, efficient, grammatically-skilled, quick-to-learn, Bachelors-in-English recipient, please float them my way. (Not to mention if you know of affordable housing or someone with housing looking for a roommate)
